Creativity serves many purposes. My art journals are at times bright with intuitive insights, and at other times they express the limited beliefs that create my emotional pain.
Depending on whether I am coming from my human fears or my soul's directives, my creativity over the last many years has been at times intuitive and mythic, and at other times heavy, human and mundane.
At some point in life, we need to experience what it feels like to live beyond the limiting belief systems that we repeat without question. We literally have to see how we construct the limited patterns of our reality and stop creating from those limitations.
Practicing a New Mind
"In order to change a belief or a perception of yourself and your life, you have to make a decision with such a firm intention that the choice carries an amplitude of energy that is greater than the hardwired programs in the brain and the emotional addiction in the body, and the body must respond to a new mind."
~ Dr Joe Dispenza
Intuition arises naturally after we deconstruct our mental limitations. We all know what it feels like to expand beyond our limited framework. All of us have transcended our limitations at some point in our life. We may have "gone beyond ourselves" through playing a sport, engaging in creativity, becoming one with nature, or diving into all-encompassing intimacy with another person.
I was blessed to have a brief spiritual opening many years ago
when I could suddenly see beyond the limitations that I normally lived my life within. When I came back to my habitual state of mind and biological emotional patterning, it felt crushingly heavy. I determinedly started engaging in a daily creative practice to help me move back into a state of open possibility.
I have found that it is possible to transform habitual emotional pain just by introducing something new into my life each day. Creating spontaneously for so many years has conditioned me into a daily sense of "newness" that encourages me to be more empowered than in my past.
My creative practices communicate with me in a way that helps me to understand the root beliefs that perpetuate my emotional pain. We all have the potential to grow into much more than we think we are. It just takes a firm intention to employ some form of daily determined forward-moving action.
Before I started creating expressive art, I struggled to move my authentic energies into life. Daily creative practices initially felt like a struggle for me. In the beginning, I did not know how to express myself very well - or rather, I was afraid to.
When I first was learning how to create something new every day, I allowed myself to be hugely expressive in my private journals. And yet in my relationships, I would still catch myself playing small - carefully withholding my self-expression in order to fit in.
We truly do create our own limited habitual reality. When I was with people I started to watch how I retracted my truth so as not to make anyone feel uncomfortable.
I came to feel the patterns of the holding back the life force in my body. On a bodily level, I noticed how I contracted my power by tensing in my pelvis, hips, back, and neck.
It is possible to overcome the repression of our authentic truth. David R. Hawkins MD writes about it this way:
"The ego can be thought of as a series of entrenched habits of thought which are a result of entrainment of invisible energy fields that dominate human consciousness. To overcome the gravity of worldly thoughts and beliefs requires the work of implementing the decision of the spiritual will to deprogram consciousness."
Most of us are conflicted between the urge to express our authentic self and the opposite urge to fit in and "match" our environment. To belong, we might unconsciously choose to tamp down our passionate energies to "help" others feel comfortable in our presence.
The good news is we can "deprogram" ours limitations through a daily creative practice that gradually enlarges our sense of self. We can learn to gradually let go of all the ways we make ourselves feel small, limited and repressed.